Overwhelmed....

Lately, I have seemed to be forgetful, weepy, exhausted, anxious, and just plain overwhelmed with everything! My Mother keeps telling me that those emotions are all part of pregnancy, and they come more frequent during your last trimester...now that I am 6 months pregnant, the realization, that this little life I am going to be responsible for will be here in less then 3 months starts setting in more and more..
The worries start setting in too... The worries and anxiety of Brandon living 3 1/2 hours away, worrying if he will be able to make it to the birth of his son if I go into labor early, worrying about money, a car, and baby shower coming up. I also seem to be getting more and more anxious about labor.. (I don't think watching Discovery Health channel helps me either!)
I have found myself weeping on days, when I just do not feel well, and my feelings overwhelm me.. and I do turn to God on those days, and just give all my worries to Him. I just want my hope back...my hope that everything will work out for the best, because I have no hope right now, just a heart full of worry... And a brain working on overtime with all my thoughts.
So, I pray that God will move the gloomy clouds from my view, so that shining light will shine in my view, and my hope will return to my heart, and the worry will fade... Mason is my unplanned angel... and I just want the best for him.. and the best for Brandon and I. Those two blessings are what matters to me most... My best friend, and the Father of my child, and my precious gift from God, my son.

Reaching for courage...

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)

Baby Belly at 6 months :)

My tummy finally recently popped out, and you can definetly tell there is a big boy growing in there :) I feel him move about every hour now, which is very exciting.. I have no more nausea, but now I am just tired 24/7, I feel like I need several naps to get through the day, but I will take that over being nauseated any day..Food is def my best friend now!! And I seem to LOVE everything...nothing is off limits when it comes to food except for chinese :(
I can't wait to see what the 7 month belly looks like :)

Letter to Mason from his Daddy...

Okay, most of you who have been around me a lot since I have been pregnant know how overly emotional I am right now, and after I read this letter Brandon wrote to Mason, there was NOTHING but tears!!! So sweet! Here it is...

Mason,
Every day I wonder about who you will look like, the kinds of foods you will like, what sports you will play and how much of a blessing you are to me and Amanda. I cannot wait until the day you are actually here so that I may hold you in my arms and be called a father. I know that Amanda and I are going to do our best to raise you in the way that we see proper and to love and cherish you unconditionally.
Right now I am in Boone, NC finishing school at Appalachian State while Amanda is living back home in Columbia, SC. I know that I need to finish school so that I may be able to provide you and Amanda with a home. Though this may be very difficult at times we know that we are strong enough to make it through this rough patch in our lives.
You are a true blessing to everyone and will be loved by many. Just to name a few... Mommy, Myself, Mimi, Granddad, Ashley, Caleigh, Alona, Jim, Tami, Cody, Dylan and everyone that we know and that is related to us cannot await your arrival. You will be loved by many people and we will have the support to raise you the best we can.
I already love you even though you are not here yet, and cannot wait to teach you how to play baseball. Keep growing and kicking mommy in the stomach.

Love,

Dad

Letter to Mason from his Mommy.....

I recently went and bought a baby book, and in it there is a spot for a letter to write to your unborn child. This is my letter I wrote to Mason.
Mason,
Everyday I feel you move around, I feel you growing, I feel my love for you growing to an unconditional love that will never end... I dream of the day you will be in my arms, and finally here for Brandon and I to guide you and raise you to be the best person you can be.
This has been such an experience so far, that no one could have explained it to me. Your Daddy and I created you, we love each other so much, and we can not wait to share all of our love with you. You are already so loved by so many people, so many people want to hold you in their arms, and hug and kiss you..You are already so special, and such a blessing from God. Our little angel...
At times, I have started to get scared...Your Daddy is finishing school so he can get a good job to support you, and your Mommy. We love each other very much, and we are very strong people, so I know we will be able to get through it..Mommy just gets worried sometimes about your Father being far away..But I pray about it, and just remember that no matter what, God will only give us what we can handle.. I also get scared because your Daddy and I are young parents, and I pray that we will have the guidance to perservere and make the right decisions for you, and for your future..
Even though your Father and I are not married, we will get married in the future..You are still very wanted on this Earth, and I look at it as part of God's plan for us..Mommy, Daddy, and you...You are our angel, and we love you so much..I can't wait to meet you Mason :)

.: Mason's First Picture! .:

Mason is 100% healthy and I am now in my 5th month of pregnancy :) Everything is going by so quickly! I can't wait until we get to hold him in our arms!!